Saturday, March 13, 2010
i noe its my fault for leaving colin in the 1st place
if anyone bad mouths me about tt i will just
accept it...
now that things have gone bad between rico
and i...i decided to return to colin....
yes, i asked colin if he wanted me back...
fine if you wanna call me thick skin or watever....
but its becoz of rico tt i realised how good colin
was to me...
but at that moment he didnt accept becoz
he was attached...
that very night colin and his gf broke up....
but it wasnt becoz of me... they had their own
problems...
so if you dunno wat happened between us then
go and find out before giving any comments....
12:46 AM
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
hai... i dunno wat i'm doing wif my life...
lost my mind a bit...
went out wif joel hoping tt he can help me
4get bout that jerk...
i thought i could fall for him... but things
didnt turn out that way....
after our date tgt then i realised tt although
he treats me very well... but he wont become
the type of guy tt i will love.
i will nv fall for a guy who doesnt spend on me.
its not tt i'm materialistic now... its just tt 1st
date, lunch, went to foodcourt eat and i had
to pay myself... this is one thing i cannot stand.
and he doesnt send me home....
.
.
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after meeting joel... went to amk to meet colin.
found him more attractive now...but was
disappointed tt he was attached...
went to the pub for a drink...talk bout our pass
i told him i wanna go back to him and all...
but he was attached i was attached...
coincidently his gf wanted to break up tt night.
and i guess we kinda got back tgt...
broke up wif joel the next day...
i screwed up my life i guess... now there are lots
of things that i have to face up to...
colin's mom doesnt feel tt we should get back tgt
my mom feels the same...
and colin's frenz... dunno how to face them....
all the stress...
1:48 PM
Saturday, March 6, 2010
thursday went out wif my babes to town!!!
xinru and i met earlier... coz i didnt wan to stay
at home....
went to coffee club for a chat while waiting for
MH and gui...hai....
went to kbox to sing....
stupid leonardo rico left his phone wif some cb...
and tt fucking bitch kept picking up the phone!!
so after K went to find akhina to help me....
chatted abit... missed her so much...
fri meet my son, yunos, for lunch... then ate and
chatted...
leonardo rico's uncle called... told me about alot
of things i didnt noe... well no point tinking about
it liao...i'm just having a hard time getting through
everything....
after that off to amk to meet joel... haven seen him
since i was working at ECP....had dinner then
slacked at amk until 11+
then off to siglap to meet nigel... complained bout
siglap....and mac no space so... decided to go ECP!
luckily there still was bus... so didnt have to walk
hanged out until 2am then walked home!!!!
10:10 AM
Monday, March 1, 2010
living like a zombie.... feeling dead...
he was supposed to come back to spore today..
but he decided he didnt wan to come back...
i got agitated with him....
i was a bit too harsh on him....
i regret it so much....
i should have been more patient...
if i did then he wont have cancelled his no.
now i cant even reach him...
i just wan him to come back and face things
instead of hiding...
everything can be settled if he is willing to
appear and explain everything...
another reason why i wan him back is becoz
i miss him....
this rs can still work out if he is willing to
change...
why cant he understand all this...
11:51 PM
Sunday, February 28, 2010
well everyday is still very suffocating....
even after everything... i still love him alot...
to me everything can be settled easily...
i believe he can change as well...
he took the initiative to msg me few days ago.
so i belief i'm still important to him bah...
talked to him on the phone for awhile...
his voice.... got me worried...
dunno wat he's doing or where he is...
it has been 1 week le... if this goes on any longer
i tink i will really go mad..
i'm alrdy going crazy just wondering if he is ok....
everyday just waiting and waiting for his msg...
i really dunno wat is he doing or why he dun reply.
left in disappointment everytime...
i have decided to off my phone... i dun wanna feel
disappointed anymore....
i wish he will come back to spore safe and
sound soon....
i've fallen too deep... i cant pull myself out anymore
1 packet of cigarette a day... and drinking till my
gastric spoils....
6:19 PM
Friday, February 26, 2010
wats wrong wif me....
cant stop myself from thinking of you
cant stop myself from missing you
stop this stupid water works of mine!!!
the only silver lining from this is that
i lost 3kg in 4 days....
wats going to happen from here now
is a bur....
i'm not rdy for watever tt will come my
way...
5:21 PM
Thursday, February 25, 2010
eugenia eugenia eugenia.... tsk tsk tsk...
i can go and get rdy for MICE sub paper le...
hmm....i'm just wondering how the hell am i
going to attend MICE revision lesson when i
have to work....
plz dun let me tio sub paper... sub exam is
during my bdae week....
wee~~~ totally dunno wat the hell i'm doing
anymore...
super brain damage...
mom forced me to eat dinner becoz i haven
been eating for 4 days...
hai... i wan to eat but i just cant!!! i have no
appetite so watever i put in my mouth just
makes me sick....
and wtf... these 4 days keep waking up at 7 or
8am... i wanna slp till like 1pm....
i dun wanna face having to be awake for so long
feeling down, sick and lonely!!!!
its just too much for me to handle alone....
11:01 PM
