Friday, January 29, 2010
i'm going through the worst days of my life...
nv felt like this before... missing you until i'm
going crazy....
i have the urge to just forget about skool and
everything else and just fly to indo to find you...
i really wanna see you...
i'm getting sick without you.... have been feeling
so giddy, keep vomiting, even starting to not see
clearly anymore and i keep trembling....
when you msged me ytd morning...i managed to
calm myself down for a little while... by
afternoon i started to feel sick again...
i cant stay alone at home... its driving me crazy...
i have so much things to tok to you about...
and i want u to help me study... i cant concentrate
on studying without you around...
i have an assignment to be handed in by mon
and i have SSM test on mon, i need to rmb a lot
of things....
but i really cant concentrate on doing it...
my mind is just filled with you...
i miss the way you help mi think of funny ways
to help me rmb all the info...
i miss the way you help me spray my hair for
SSM...
baby...come to tink of it, i havent seen you for
more than a week le....
can you plz faster come back to spore...
this feeling that i have now is really killing me...
i really feel very uncomfortable....
8:59 AM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
nv felt so depressed in my 20 yrs of life....
i really need anti-depression pills....
i cant eat, cant sleep, cant study or do any work
spent the past few days waiting and waiting and
waiting....
i noe you wont come but a part of me believed
that in the end you would show up, but you nv...
stupidly waiting online, waiting by my phone,
waiting in the living room....
went to the airport to wait.... ran from terminal
to terminal... abit stupid but i cant help it...
i wanted to see you so badly....
went home when i finally accepted the fact tt
you're not going to show up...
went home.... felt more depressed at home so
asked huichen out.... so sry to call you out so
late at night....somemore you stay so far...
on the way to east coast got hit by a stupid car...
fucking green man still dare to hit me... lucky i
didnt get to see the no. plate...
went to smoke, drink and chat at east coast...
left at about 1am...
went home to another sleepless night....
checked for any offline msg or email every few
hours...
finally received your msg and yet again you
asked me to wait.... and again i noe you wont
contact me but now i'm still waiting by my phone
thx to those who kept trying to cheer me up!!!
11:36 AM
Monday, January 25, 2010
omg omg omg.... ok ok.... next time i'll be
smarter and save a copy of my conversation
so tt i dun have to retype 1 million times...
or i will blog about it...so tt you all can read it
yourself!!!!
10:38 PM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
stupid idiot everything also dun tell mi...
aaarrrghhhh!!!!!
prince changed his rs status in fb.... why
because his cousin saw and told her mother
then her mother ask prince's mother we
engaged le ah....
stupid idiot cousin....
nv see other ppl's fb got put married meh...
then wat really married ah...cb....
nothing better to do so busybody...
du lan lor... suddenly see the status different!
ggrrr....stop doing stupid things....
so pissed off... feel like killing someone...
when will all the stupid things ever end...
i tink i need to take up boxing!!!
5:46 PM
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
feeling damn down...
nothing has been going right...
everything is beginning to feel like a lie...
need my chivas to keep me alive...
to numb myself...
to help me fall asleep....
to keep me from dying....
11:47 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
today went to skool found out abit on wat
happened during SSM last week...
i was sick so didnt go to skool....
heard that last week the bar was very busy
so 1 of our service instructors went to help
out at the bar...
a guest ordered latte... then he complained
tt the latte was burnt...
during debrief, tt service instructor scolded the
bar-tender.... saying tt until now still dunno how
to make coffee....
but guess wat... the bar-tender wasnt the
one who cooked the latte...
.
.
.
it was tt service instructor who did.
anything tt we did wrong and pointed out
during debriefs, we will admit to our mistakes.
but that t-cher.... tsk tsk tsk... she didnt even
dare to admit her mistake.... and still pushed
the blame onto us students...
so wat can i say.... a really coward loser
5:00 PM
Monday, January 11, 2010
this is gonna be a long long post about SSM!!!!
this morning woke up with one eye not being able to
see clearly...but since get ready and all liao so just
go skool lor....
daniel chia told me to go back home but didnt wan to
coz skipped last week liao and if i went home my mum
sure will nag at me for being unwell again...
wat more i heard tt lots of ppl nv come today so i
decided to stay and help...
today serious lack of staff... my station only Aziz
and i...
then there was this thing about table 21 that really
pissed me off...
there was a fucking table wif 25 ppl... then 1 t-cher
happily go and ask the kitchen to stop cooking the
others and cook the 25 ppl one 1st... so the other
tables only can wait....
table 21 waited fucking long for their food and y coz
the fucking t-cher told the kitchen to cook the 25 ppl
one... so now my table no food must wait then how
ya blame me.... and i fired table 12 and 21 tgt....
table 12 can get their food...still say i fired too
late...tt means like tt is the t-cher squeeze the 25
ppl de orders in between my orders wat right....
still say wat they from service industry...noe the
industry very well... then where got such thing as all
the cooks cook for 1 table...just becoz they were all
managers doesnt make them more special than any
other guest.
they also so damn fucking kae kang accept one 25 ppl
reservation...like as they expected, we are LRM sure
alot of absentees then still fucking expect so much
for wat...
still say today's performance not gd...
fuck you la... i dun need anyone to tell me about how
bad my performance was ok... i know for a fact that i
worked my fucking ass off despite feeling giddy and
only seeing with one eye... so those t-chers who dunno
anything should just shut the fuck up...
the t-chers asked, then wat could we have done?....
she said we could have asked her if we could give them
some food while they waited.... seriously la shouldnt
they have taught us tt 1st... just throw us out and
expect us to know wat to do... didnt do wat they expect
then fail us... huh fuck their teaching system...
still give us the shit about teaching us to be ready
when we enter the industry...hello who the hell said
tt i ever wanted to join the F&B industry...not me...
nv have i considered even for a second to join F&B
industry....
complained to daddy all the way home... i tink wat
daddy said made a lot of sense...
even if they were very gd at watever field they came
from, doesnt make them gd t-chers... working hard is
one thing and teaching is another...
i agree...they are born to serve...not teach
and lecturers do not earn as much as managers and all
so why do they still wanna be lecturers?....
duh...becoz they are not gd enough to make their way
into a higher position in their field...
or becoz they are ppl who cannot take stress... in the
working world, they will be scolded by their higher-ups
but being a lecturer means tt you'll get to scold
students instead...
the t-chers were the one who told the chefs to stop
cooking for the other tables... so table 21 having to wait
long is the t-chers fault not the students...
but then again which t-cher will admit tt they are at
fault...none...when they can all easily push the
faults to the poor innocent student...
i will definitely write to the MOE about how these
t-cher have been abusing, us, students....
but of coz only after i have graduated or if i fail the
subject...
6:16 PM
