Sunday, February 28, 2010
well everyday is still very suffocating....
even after everything... i still love him alot...
to me everything can be settled easily...
i believe he can change as well...
he took the initiative to msg me few days ago.
so i belief i'm still important to him bah...
talked to him on the phone for awhile...
his voice.... got me worried...
dunno wat he's doing or where he is...
it has been 1 week le... if this goes on any longer
i tink i will really go mad..
i'm alrdy going crazy just wondering if he is ok....
everyday just waiting and waiting for his msg...
i really dunno wat is he doing or why he dun reply.
left in disappointment everytime...
i have decided to off my phone... i dun wanna feel
disappointed anymore....
i wish he will come back to spore safe and
sound soon....
i've fallen too deep... i cant pull myself out anymore
1 packet of cigarette a day... and drinking till my
gastric spoils....
6:19 PM
Friday, February 26, 2010
wats wrong wif me....
cant stop myself from thinking of you
cant stop myself from missing you
stop this stupid water works of mine!!!
the only silver lining from this is that
i lost 3kg in 4 days....
wats going to happen from here now
is a bur....
i'm not rdy for watever tt will come my
way...
5:21 PM
Thursday, February 25, 2010
eugenia eugenia eugenia.... tsk tsk tsk...
i can go and get rdy for MICE sub paper le...
hmm....i'm just wondering how the hell am i
going to attend MICE revision lesson when i
have to work....
plz dun let me tio sub paper... sub exam is
during my bdae week....
wee~~~ totally dunno wat the hell i'm doing
anymore...
super brain damage...
mom forced me to eat dinner becoz i haven
been eating for 4 days...
hai... i wan to eat but i just cant!!! i have no
appetite so watever i put in my mouth just
makes me sick....
and wtf... these 4 days keep waking up at 7 or
8am... i wanna slp till like 1pm....
i dun wanna face having to be awake for so long
feeling down, sick and lonely!!!!
its just too much for me to handle alone....
11:01 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
hai... why must CNY and valentines day fall on
the day....
darling is in spore now but so.... go visiting...
our 1st valentines day....i didnt tink the day
would be spent like this...
well nothing can be done to turn back time le...
so no point complaining about anything...
5:14 PM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
damn irritated....
tell you how many times liao and you keep
doing the same thing to piss me off...
everytime last min then tell me things....
when tell me of coz got difference la....
then i ask you la... you wait until time for
you to leave then you tell me you got to go
got diff anot....also about 1 hr diff only wat!!
but it makes so much a bloody hell of a
difference lor
you urself know that i will be angry and yet
you dunno to pacify me... still ask me wat i
want...
worst of all you kept saying me...
you do things that make me du lan then
pacify la... plz lor tell you how many times
liao... even if i nv tell u b4 you should have
the common sense to know wat to do lor...
seriously cb lor... work until tired so lazy to
pacify... i will rmb tt forever!!!!
next time i tired i also wont give you wat
you wan....
leave also just leave... 1 msg also dunno how
to send.... feeling so disappointed....hai...
GGGGRRRRRAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!
only noe how to piss me off...
irritating block of wood.....
so damn fucking irritated!!!!
.
.
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i am also like 1 stupid idiot..... just 2 weeks
ago only... i still have not learnt my lesson...
i shouldnt expect anything from you....
so damn bloody disappointed. until now you
still dunno when and how to take initiative
to make things better
9:30 PM
i am so damn fucking irritated.... cant you tell that i am fucking pissed off....
take things seriously la....
how i wish i can throw you somewhere tt will
teach you to decode my mood!!!!!
and also wat you should you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
SO IRRITATED!!!!
du lan until cannot slp le la
1:30 AM
Friday, February 5, 2010
went to look through this box tt i have...
when i was younger, i used to write down
everything that happened which made me
unhappy....
things that i had to keep to myself....
i was reminded of the childhood i had...
everything that made me wat i am today...
9:11 PM
Thursday, February 4, 2010
today was carrying food home for baby...
went to bedok interchange to take bus.
damn fucking suay...the stupid weirdo
uncle was going to drive the 40!!!
and guess wat. the uncle came up to me
and asked me i buy food for him ah....
as in seriously ask not jokingly ask!!!!
like wat the fuck can...
fucking disturbing lor....dunno wat the
fuck is the uncle tinking sia....
omg i rather go feed the stray dogs then
buy for him food lor....disgusting!!!
11:56 AM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
thxfully darling came back to spore on fri nite...
came to my hse and we had a gd tok....
everything's okay now.
after which we headed down to the HK cafe at
katong....
ate a very late dinner (my 1st proper meal after
so many days)...
then walked all the way home...
(again the 1st night i could slp well)
sat darling and i went out to catch a movie and
shop....
when darling was away, i was thinking of catching
a movie wif him when he comes back. and when
he came back, he asked me if i wanted to watch
movie 1st..... i dunno if its a coincidence or our
thoughts have kinda linked tgt....
sun was spent doing BESE reflection....
at night we went to east coast for dinner....
came back tried to rmb pick up chart...
monday SSM prof test 2.... couldnt rmb a thing
from the pick up chart...0 marks....sian!!!
but table setting everything correct.... so should
be able to pass bah... i hope...
the pick up chart mr chia can rmb everything by
heart...tt one nothing to say... but then again
he has been teaching for how many years le...
every yr teach the same thing... so can rmb
everything also not tt surprising...
on the other hand...mr goh... have to look at pick
up chart and test us....tsk tsk tsk... if he cant rmb
how can we...
on the way home darling asked if wanna go out.
so went to meet baby at bugis.. shopped awhile
then watched avatar for the 2nd time...
this time was in 3D....the 3D effects were better
than expected... so much better compared to
my bloody valentine...
then went to eat kway chap.... has been more
than a yr since i last ate tt.
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baby has changed a lot. always spending a lot
of time with me.... i'm really touched...
maybe last time wo tai ren xing.... i feel kinda
bad....i dun wan baby to squeeze all his work tgt
and tire himself out so tt he have extra time for
me...
i dun like to see baby go off for work as well...
i dun like to see baby back turned and walking
away.... i wanna stick to my baby the whole day!
1:11 PM
